Thanks for the complements man I consider myself very lucky because initially after she passed I did fall down the hole of drinking every night until passing out. One of the things that did save me there was she was never really a drinker and hated drunks. Every time I'd get drunk not only would I be feeling shit from whatever actions I had done and the subsequent hangover but I'd also feel guilty as fuck for becoming someone that she'd hate. That stopped me from going any further thankfully and I managed to pull myself out of that fairly early on in the piece. I think it's definitely harder dealing with something that you've already once known then lost - however being alone regardless is still fucking hard man. I admire you for coping as well as you do, you're doing a wicked job Also, money can't buy you happiness but it can buy you guitars and gear which then can be used to create happiness Thank you Doesn't matter whether it's from a random forum member, close friend or a figure I look up to, it all means a lot!